Happy!

Blog Singh,

Everything went well the U/S. We even got to see the baby move! It was one of the best moments of my life... It is actually pretty hard to pen down the exact feelings... but you know what I mean. 

Guess what? I find out if it is a girl or a boy in a few weeks! Everyone thinks it is a boy... I think otherwise! Not sure if I really think that or if I am just balancing out the guesses. Either way, I will know soon enough.

What do you think?

A very excited,

Spirit Kaur

Anxiety

Blog Singh,

It is believed that vomiting during the first trimester is a good sign. I have been feeling sick since week 4 and I have another week or two left in the first trimester. Do you think everything is going to be okay this time? I really hope so. I freak out if I am not feeling as sick as usual, thinking if that means I am losing the pregnancy. I know it doesn't work that way... The feeling of nausea comes and goes through out the trimester but it's hard to be logical when emotions are involved. I have not told anyone in the family yet because I didn't want to say anything till the crucial time was up. I wish I could have kept it from M too... I don't like to see him worry. You know he still has the tag from our last hospital visit... I shudder thinking what he feels like every time he sees it. I don't like seeing him like this. I want to see him smiling. Hopefully, things will work out this time because I can't even picture the other scenario for either of us.

Until later...

Spirit Kaur

Nervousness

Blog Singh,

The first ultrasound is booked! It's going to be one long wait... Can't wait to see the first glimpse of a little blob that will become our baby. Wish I could go to sleep and wake up two weeks later.

- Spirit Kaur

Yup!

Blog,

More than the positive pregnancy test, I treasure seeing his face light up when I told him. And of course staying true to his nature, he made me test again to confirm it.

It is still very early and I'm scared. Even though I don't want to taint this experience because of the past, I don't think you can ever feel the same about a pregnancy after a miscarriage. I am going to do my best to enjoy it but I will be stressing till the moment I get to hold my baby.

- Spirit